Well, here we are in 2010. I sat here on New year 's Eve. Everyone else in the house was asleep so I rang in the new year with all the folks in Times Square and asked myself if I am really ready to give this up. Then I got a letter from a dear friend. She is going through a very similar discernment so I have a feeling we will be communicating a lot. The biggest difference between her and me is that she has spent the last 17 years alone. No spouse. No children/grandchildren living in her home. (she has such but they live kind of all over the place). I have never been alone. I have always had someone living with me and have always been responsible for them in some way. I have always been someone's wife, mother, grandmother. So I'm going to go all 60's on you now and say that I think I need to go away to find myself. I barely know who I am and I don't know who I can be without someone to take care of.
Several people have said that seeing the National Parks has been a dream for them as well. For me, I see this trip as primarily a solitary one, but I also imagine some friends joining up with me from time to time.
I have done the math and if I go I can't have a rent or house payment anywhere or there won't be enough money to travel. Even without the financial burden of any kind of home I will be on the edge financially, but really, when haven't I been?
My soul is hungry for something, and taking off and being as free as it is possible to be sings to that hunger in a sweet, sweet way.
Peace
Lyn
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